Sufficient

Tonight, I was driving home after an evening downtown with Lisa...
We had filled our stomachs with a few cheap appetizers at an Asian restaurant off of Hennepin.
We had indulged in post-dinner coffee delights while cracking open our current reads.
And we followed both of those by shedding our coats and kickin back for a few hours in a movie theater.
It was enjoyable... all of it.

And while I was driving home I realized that everything, just the way it was in that moment, was sufficient. The word sufficient is one of my favorite words, I love the sound of it as it is spoken and I love that it hints towards fulfillment, towards realizing that just enough is just enough.

Me, my now rusting-from-the-bottom-up car, my favorite tunes, the heat blaring on my cold toes, the window slightly cracked, street lights on the pavement in front of me; that moment was sufficient. All things considered, I didn't desire to be anyone but me, anywhere but there.

It might be easy for many people to recognize 'sufficient moments'; as I peer into other people's lives I realize that some are so naturally content with who they are and what they are doing. For me, however, to recognize even a small moment as completely sufficient brought me so much joy. The mere possibility of finding contentment without stretching after something more, or completely other, is something that I would never take lightly for myself.

But it's something that I want to work on identifying more often. I want to be more aware, more intentionally aware, of the moments in my life where "just enough is just enough." Moments where I can stand thankful that all of my little steps brought me to just that place at just that time. Moments where I can honestly say that I am glad to be me. They might be rare, for now, but maybe as I identify them and thank God for them, as I talk about and highlight them within my daily existence, they will become more of a consistent reality in my life.