One of those twisted souls...

I’d rather appear to you as one of those twisted souls... one of those spirits that refuses to settle... one of those minds that over-picks and over-analyzes and attempts to re-divide what’s been glued together.

I’d rather appear to you as one of those girls that never settles and never satisfies and never stops. I’d sit more complete knowing you see me as unceasingly stubborn, persistent, and determined.

I’d take joy in composing myself as the opposite of the one who will rest unasked and sit tight dreamless, for she is not me. I seek to hold and grip and possess pieces of this whole world... memories and faces that will transform me and spur me further on. I seek to touch and taste what is new, what is distant, what is unheard of. I’m going to start now...and go now. I am going to love without question and without giving ponder to self. Yeah, I’m going to love now... deeper than I ever have.

Trust me. I’d rather appear to you as one of those twisted souls... one of those spirits who refuses to settle.. than put my arms down from their reaching place. For something great is coming... not from me, or by me, but out of me. When I sit here at night I can feel it... I connect every part of myself with it so that no part of me seeks less.

So don't worry if you can't catch me or keep me. Don't lose heart if you are unable to hold me tomorrow. I'm just one of those twisted souls... one of those bodies that could never have enough running and chasing and dreaming. Maybe, I'm even one of the fools who thinks she can capture it all and still have empty hands up-turned for God alone to fill. Either way... I'm going to love now... deeper than I ever have.