Why do I trek through so many days without getting excited about what I have in front of me?
How can I forget that the Lord has given me a day ... a complete day with which I can do whatever I want. (THATS A GIFT! ...HELLO RACHEL?!)
Am I too stupid to realize how young I am? How free I am do whatever I feel called to?
Why do I let the burden of the unfree concern me?
How can I worry about things that will remain unchanged by my thoughts? Is it really worth it to get so tangled up in the drudgery of life?
I am like a child ... with an array of paints in front of me... too afraid to touch them because I might get dirty. People might not like the pictures I paint. My mom might mad.
I just have this excitement today... this realization at what an adventure this life could be if I only just let it. If I just dug into the paint and made a mess of it. What could happen? Who could I become? Where could my dreams take me? Where could the Lord lead me if I was completely willing?
... Where will He lead me?! I don't know... and that is SO exciting! I am so glad to be here in this moment ... with this realization that I am so capable of doing mighty works for His Kingdom. I still have time to learn and grow and change. :) YES!!
Afterthought: Don't misinterpret my large bold statement... it doesn't mean that I'm not concerned about people who haven't found freedom... it just means I shouldn't masquerade my freedom to feel more comfortable around them.
I realized people would probably take that wrong... perhaps even intentionally just to raise an argument. That happens from time to time.
I like the revelation Rachel. It is a beautiful thing to think about, even with all the responsibilities that we have at College, we are still free to pursue so much. We can test all kinds of paints and not have to worry about the clean up. We can just do and not have to worry bout jobs or families, but we are free. Thanks for the insight, I have forgotten that.
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